Saw Hin Seang attended Alpha at FGA KL in 2010, and he came to have faith in Jesus Christ and a relationship with Him. This is his story. “I was a participant on the Alpha Course last year, and I would like to share with you my walk to receive Jesus Christ. God has patiently led and drawn me to himself for the passed 40 years, and He in His own plan drew me to join an Alpha last year.

Before I received Christ I was not attached to any religion. I was basically a strong-minded person and I would handle the ups and down in my life by my own will and effort, because I felt it was not fair to disturb God, and also I felt it was selfish of me to ask for God’s help only when I needed Him.

My strong will crumbled five years ago when I was laying on the operation table for my heart problem. For the first time in my life I called for God’s help to make sure the medical team did not make a mistake. At that moment I
realised I did not know how to communicate with God. In the end I just uttered the words, “God I leave my life to you,” and I just hoped that God would hear me.

Four years passed after I came out of the operation okay, but I did not take any action regarding God. But God would not give up on me, and He continued to work on me to crack this ‘tough nut’. During this period I noticed that I was losing the ability to forgive people easily, and to find comfort by my own efforts. I also started to think about what rites I should follow when I or my wife were to leave this world - where would our souls be going? All these while I tried to be good and believed that God would be loving and fair to me, and that I would be going to somewhere nicer than hell - though not heaven because I knew that I was not perfect (I realize now that it is impossible to be perfect by human effort).

All these thoughts were criss-crossing through my mind for some time. In short I started to seek seriously which religion I should attach to. Finally God used my wife and her friend to draw me to enrol into the Alpha Course to get to know more about Jesus Christ and Christianity.

For the first six weeks of Alpha, my rational mind was still working on me very strongly. I was resisting. It was like I was hearing the knock of Jesus at the door of my heart, but I would just peek through the small opening of the door, trying to listen to what He was trying to tell me through the gap.

Then came the weekend away on the seventh week. I suddenly realised Christianity is about a relationship between me and God. This caused me to ask myself, “How am I going to build up this relationship? How can I know more about Jesus Christ if I do not open the door of my heart to receive Christ to come in first?” That night, a brother asked me if I would want to receive Christ. Without hesitation I just said yes in the presence of God. I received Christ that night.

When I finished the Alpha Course, my appetite to know more about Jesus Christ and to build a closer relationship with God grew stronger. From Alpha I moved on to the Life Worth Living Course to learn and practice prayer, reading and studying the Bible.

Seven months after I first enrolled in Alpha, I declared my faith through water baptism. This has been the most exciting turning point in my life. I never thought I would have the chance to work out my salvation in this life time on Earth. Now I pray and study the Bible almost everyday, once in the morning and once at night, though my prayers are simple. I notice that I have become more patient and I can depend on God through the Holy Spirit to have peace under stressful situations. I am now more expressive of my love to my wife and my children. I have started to forgive easily again.”